Sooo, I've been waving around a book in the works for a while now, the only problem is, should I actually do it? If I do decide to write the book, that would mean all role playing would have to stop, and I'd have to find a friend that would be willing to put up with me when writer's insanity struck. If you've ever attempted writing a book you will know that there is paranoia, craziness, and starvation that goes along with truly devoting yourself to your work. I've tried and failed several times to actually write a book and get it published. The reason for the failure would be my interest being stolen by my various role play characters.

Why the sudden book stuff? I have recently found an old book that I had written in the fourth grade, and another from the 6th grade. Both left unfinished. That made me really start to think about the book I have been wanting to write for over a year and a half now. The Catalyst. I have mentioned this book two times over my lifespan at dA, once on April 29th, 2008, and again on October 17th, 2008. Its now, after reading my old unfinished books, that I have realized just how much I wanted to write this book, the one that I intend to actually finish, publish, and write sequels to. I don't really have anyone at home that would actually support me in this, other than my wayward sister and her smart-arsed dingle berry boyfriend. (The dingle berry thing is his favorite insult/endearing name. You see what I'm working with here?)

So. The Question is, would anyone be interested in reading the book if I actually wrote it and put a few chapters here?

Just because I feel like it, I will be posting up the two unfinished books from my child/teenhood and let you read them. If you like them send me a note, otherwise the commenting will be removed unless I would like to read your comments on either of the books.

Its after the holiday, and I am pleased yes, but also trying to think. Ill get straight to what those of you might be interested in and then ramble along. I GOT MY FREAKING TABLET!!!! I got the bigger Bamboo Fun! Best Buy screwed up so I cant get it home but YAY. Oh, and Fallout 3... HOLY CRAP that is one freaking amazing game. Every other game but Oblivion pales in comparison to that game, it is one sexy sexy game o.o. I may learn to draw some of the beasties from there for fun XD

You get to see my cruddeh drawings soon!!!

Ramble WARNING. Sailor mouth used:
I know no one reads my garb, cept maybe ashie partially XD. But, I have always wondered about what I want to do with my life, whether or not working for Bethesda would be good for me or if I'd even like it, that sort of thing. I have also been very lonely, my Ex breaking up with me for the third time totally fried all the "Independence" I had. I just wanna be cuddled and loved, thats all. Oh and maybe be happy without it blowing up in my face. Thats good. Material items just keep getting less and less worthwhile to me. I seem to be less happy when I get an item of great financial value as opposed to a hug or a kiss on the cheek. I wonder how many others feel the same. Mm, I have to ride in a car for six hours to get home x.x Mesa no wanna.

I found another lesbian online today, I am so glad to know that there are others that feel the same as I do, not constricted to the "puzzle piece" theory. Do not get me wrong, if a woman likes guys I wouldn't even bother my head over it, its not like its weird or anything. I can't see myself with one ick x.x. But what I do not like is when girls that like guys get angry at me because I dont agree with them. Kinda stupid isnt it? Why would someone who had no relevance to anything in your life whatsoever piss you off so bad that you had to get vulgar and rude, and back mouthy? Telling them what they had to like and crap. I think thats total bullshit. And I dare any one of them to come up to me and say that. Grar I hate that. People deserve opinions! You have absolutely NO say if what that person does, says, likes, dislikes, or who they love. None, nada, nilch, keine, N O N E. Basically all those who voice their opinions on how you "should" like a certain gender, or that your "disgusting" are making big huge flaming asses of themselves. Those of you who get nagged about what you like or look like, just sit there and watch them, flailing their arms, spitting, and yowling like feral cats with colic. Its funny shit right? Don't let them get to you because basically all they are doing is blowing hot air and aren't worth your bloody time. LESBIAN PRIDE YO. Random.

I really need a girlfriend x.x, even long distance is good but nyeh.

Yeah, so. The awesome festival in WoW started a few days ago. EVERYBODY SCREEEEEAAAAAM! Imm a go get my presents nao.

Why is Christmas time one of the worst times to be alive for some people? So many of my friends and even people on here are having a rough ass time, falling apart, suicide, break ups, losing of jobs, divorces. I don't get why people have such a hard time in the winter, its actually depressing, and ironically enough, when one person does something depressing, it avalanches across the world. Can't the world just give this season a break? Why does everything fall a fucking part? Even my life is having a sucky turn lately, and I didn't provoke it! I don't get it, why can't people just get fucking happy and stop doing stupid stuff during the winter? Its got to be the most misunderstood time of the year, and i hate it when people misunderstand something when its right there, gleaming like a pearl in their eyes. Then there are people who literally blame the season. Honestly? Blaming a season that has been going on far longer than human's limited brain can comprehend? Those who think the season is the reason for their sucky life need to jump under a snow plow. Unless you live in florida like I do, then just go jump off the Wet 'n Wild's tallest water ride.

I've seen those shout it out images all over the place, and I freaking think its a good Idea, and I am going to make one. I am not good a typography but screw it.

By the by those who do read this, I like christmas, not the "winter holidays" christmas. No I am not a christian but I am forced to go through the ritual every year but I don't make people say something different because it "offends" me. Get /over/ it. Seriously, leave people alone.

Happy Chrismahoniquanzika. Yeah. I went there.

Random journal entry, felt like making one because I found an awesome song and wanted to broadcast it(haha yeah I do that kind of garbage) Sooo... I was wondering to all those who use a tablet, or know of a tablet, what you would suggest? 'cause xmas is coming up and my mum wants to upgrade my awful setup XD.

I made a picture last night, big winged horse with crazy unseeable markings, i'm not going to post it up. Its garbage hehe. But I can say, I found a new breed of stock that can be used for jumping/flying horses. Note me if your curious, you probably already know, but I found it out recently so no thwaping on the head for me XD.

I'm going to go play Fable II, if you have it or play on Xbox 360 live(actually called xbox live but neh.) Note me and i'll give you my Gamercard so we can chat! XD

Sooo yeah... I love Batty, if you don't know who that is, go find out. Seriously. Bloodyknuckles. Yep.(with lots of x's but i'm too lazy XD) Awesome person. Go stalk -prods-

woot i'm a spazz. yup yup. I'mma go nao. LOVE YOU ALL.

Go watch Twilight when it comes out, then we can go rabid on the director if she bombs it which I doubt.